Way too much back story for the intended story!

Another post? So soon? What the hell is that about?

Well, when I first turned my computer on and decided to blog I was thought that for some strange reason I was highly motivated...

Of course then I realised that it was just that I had ran out of ways to procrastinate, and that the only thing left to do was to procrastinate by doing other things that I actually had to get around to...

One of those things was blog!

SO HERE I AM BITCHES!!!!

I was actually gonna start this sentence with the word so...but I don't like that word...too much anyway. But ... Another thing... that I feel I use... too much... is the dots... hahaha

Another thing that i noticed that i do too much that i want to highlight in this sentence is that the use of the internetzzz frequently and informally has made me stop making my i's, I's.

But enough about my shitty grammar.

In the last post I decided to blame my lack of frequency of posts on the STAT.

STAT is the Special Tertiary Admissions Test. Basically I took a test to see if i could get into university. I don't know how I feel about it. There wasn't much that I could do to study for it and that made me feel a little nervous. I mean all throughout high school I didn't necessarily feel the need to study. Actually It was more like all throughout my school experience I didn't really need to study.

I find that without me trying I generally retain a lot of information without trying... also i tend to silently analyse things pretty quickly. I think this makes me a pretty good judge of peoples character and shit too. Though some people call me a little too judgmental and at the time I've had people downright yelling in my face and persecuting me for my judgments of people.

I try not to..weeks or possibly months down the track when everything and more I said about the person turns out to be true...to say "I told you so"...

I find myself just sitting there listening to the people around me complain about these people while in my head I'm just like "I TOLD YOU SO!!!! YOU MOTHERFUCKERS! I SAW IT BUT NOOOO! YOU ALL HAD TO EXPERIENCE IT!!! BAHAHA I'M RIGHT AGAIN"

And then it fizzles into me not caring.

But i think that way of thinking, and retaining information whilst not really needing to pay so close attention is what helped me through a butt tonne of my school work.

Actually one instance that comes to mind is in Year 10 Geography. I really did not find that subject interesting. I mean basically we covered most of that information in the first year or second year and then it was a whole year repeating the same shit over and over and over and over again...laaaaaame. It's not that i find all the subject matter boring, just the whole tree hugger science aspects. Anyways, for the whole first term i may have used up a whole 4 pages of the book I designated to Geography.

Come test time naturally my teacher was just furious. I found it at the time unjust. I was one of the top participants in his class rants, I mean, someone has to keep the teacher talking...otherwise he might make you actually do some work in class time.

He said I'd never pass the subject and that he was gonna have a talk to the head teacher about my upcoming test results and the whole class was loling their asses off at me. Then the next day we had the test. Then later that next week we got the results posted in the hall with the rankings and shit...And I came first in the grade! BAM BITCH!!!

Queue the smugness on my face and in my attitude when I walked into class the next day. And when I bring up the expected conversation with the head teacher, he pulls me outside the class and has the audacity to give me a lecture on smugness...good times.

But since I've left school, I tend to be quiet. Really, really quiet. I'm just inside my head a lot. especially lately. I just don't find the need to talk to people anymore than necessary and so it makes me feel like maybe I'm losing intellect.

That's what made me nervous about this test. But we shall see the result. I get it on my birthday. So I'm expecting it to be a shit day...based on the run of luck I've been having since early '09!

This blog seems way too long. I'm gunna wrap it up.

Bye all

OK...so it took a little time...

Today I think I'm finally gonna be able to post.

Ok! So I deleted my drafts and shit and decided to start over.

The reason I haven't had time to post lately has been that I have been
overly anxious with the STAT.

That's the admissions test to see if I can get into uni... I'll talk
about that later though.

With this post I wanted to take the time to explain what it is I
wanted to do with this blog.

Some people make cooking blogs, I saw that movie Julie and Julia
thought it was awesome. Some people make blogs where they criticise
everything. Some people just use there blogs as journals, to record
what they do everyday.

Me?

Well this is my blog so it can be whatever the fuck I want it to be!

LOL
Just kidding!!!
...kinda...

But seriously,

I set out wanting my blog to have some sort of meaning to it, I didn't
want it to be just me babbling about my day because frankly I don't
need to record what i do.

So, since I only told Joseph, about this blog, I assume no one else
knows about it and unless by chance people stumble upon this or it
comes up in conversation I doubt that anyone will read this.

I'm not trying to hide this blog... I just don't at this point want to
advertise it.

So for this blog, I really just wanted to write down a bit about my
history, major events in my life, and what I'm going through.

Basically a sad attempt at self therapy thrown out to the general
public for any opinions people might have that may just be constructive
bits of wisdom.

Also I think that having something like this might eventually make me
better at writing. I mean it's not necessarily going to be the case
but I hope it is.

Finally I just wanted someplace that I could put my thoughts and
organise myself a tell... Someone what I'm doing and going through
without the immediate judgment that comes with telling people face to
face.

This way I get to put away my filter and tell things the way I really
see them.

...also...

AN END TO THE DEBATE!!!
lol just kidding... I just wanted to add a pic haha